Chocolate: A Self-Help Guide

Starting week three of being unemployed.

I didn't know what to do with myself today.  I've applied for dozens of jobs, and I'm sure a fitting position will open for me soon.  But it was weird.  I couldn't relax, or do things that I wanted to do, because I felt like I needed to get a job.  But a job isn't something you can just reach out and grab.  You have to wait for it.  I have a hard time waiting.

I felt like a waste of space.

Then I read this Thomas Jefferson quote (I keep a Jefferson quote blog):

"I have sometimes asked myself whether my country is the better for my having lived at all?  I do not know that it is.  I have been the instrument of doing the following things; but they would have been done by others; some of them, perhaps a little better."
He then goes on to list his accomplishments.
"The Declaration of Independence."
"I proposed the demolition of the church establishment, and the freedom of religion."
"The act prohibiting the importation of slaves."
If it's ok for Jefferson to feel like a waste of space, then it's ok for me to have blah days as well

A wise man told me that depression is a healthy, normal, and necessary time for reflection.

And I'd add to that: chocolate.  Depression is a time for chocolate.  The cause, and cure, of my current predicament.


kathy w. said...

I'm glad that you found Jefferson's quote on Monday. I'm also glad that every day after that has been better than the last.

Mike and Lauren said...

Great quote from Jefferson. It also reminded me of something another guy said once,

"Did you know that a woman can carry a child for nine months, suffer an excruciating labor for hours on end, deliver a perfectly healthy baby, and still feel like she hasn't done anything worthwhile? Women are so weird. But I love them, especially my two girls."

Blah days happen. Blah times of life happen. Just don't let yourself get tricked into truly believing those blah day feelings. You are amazing and are meant for truly great things. Sometimes the pathway to those things is not as nicely paved as we want it to be, and sometimes it just disappears altogether for a while. But it will reappear. Love you.

Bryson and Tara said...

Ugh. I hope your job search brings you some success soon. Until then, enjoy your chocolate and family. :)